Woah,so Iam posting after an year or something..
And i read these posts written by me so long ago and i realise how far I have come,and how much I have changed.
for good or for bad,I can't say yet..for one,the person I mentioned in my blog is still in my life though now he is one of my closest freinds that I love and cherish and well,let's just say there are problems going on between us for a while and how weird that just when I was going to give up on us !Istumble upon this post and it makes me realise how it all started .how Iam not going to give up.I have done that enough.
Aside from all this,I have just shifted to a new place and settling in is hard and so is dealing with nostalgia.But Iam doing it and in the process finding new things about myself I didn't know were there.Its appropriate to say Iam rediscovering myself since Iam so longer defined by the impressions people have of me.But starting from scratch is hard,making a place for yourself is hard but I'll do it because I have done it before.
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As Iam rediscovering myself I look back on the time when I was new back where I came from too.And i notice how gullible and trusting I was compared to what Iam today,I call myself "mature" now and I think everyone is playing games and that's not true.The world has good people and being trusting is not a weakness ,it's a strength that younger me used to possess and I want it back.Because at the end of the day more people have been by my side than who have betrayed me.Trusting has never backfired..But I can say that one good change that has come is Iam more self reliant where emotional needs are concerned and that's so liberating but I miss who I was and now I realise Iam the person past me wanted to be.
Iam confident,self reliant,witty and mostly smart.
But I also realise that I want to be much more,I want to be someone who is approachable and someone who is a good person and someone who is positive and encouraging ..
I think moving me from the place where I was is just a way for the universe giving me a chance to rediscover myself and make a better version of myself.Mm
And i read these posts written by me so long ago and i realise how far I have come,and how much I have changed.
for good or for bad,I can't say yet..for one,the person I mentioned in my blog is still in my life though now he is one of my closest freinds that I love and cherish and well,let's just say there are problems going on between us for a while and how weird that just when I was going to give up on us !Istumble upon this post and it makes me realise how it all started .how Iam not going to give up.I have done that enough.
Aside from all this,I have just shifted to a new place and settling in is hard and so is dealing with nostalgia.But Iam doing it and in the process finding new things about myself I didn't know were there.Its appropriate to say Iam rediscovering myself since Iam so longer defined by the impressions people have of me.But starting from scratch is hard,making a place for yourself is hard but I'll do it because I have done it before.
a
As Iam rediscovering myself I look back on the time when I was new back where I came from too.And i notice how gullible and trusting I was compared to what Iam today,I call myself "mature" now and I think everyone is playing games and that's not true.The world has good people and being trusting is not a weakness ,it's a strength that younger me used to possess and I want it back.Because at the end of the day more people have been by my side than who have betrayed me.Trusting has never backfired..But I can say that one good change that has come is Iam more self reliant where emotional needs are concerned and that's so liberating but I miss who I was and now I realise Iam the person past me wanted to be.
Iam confident,self reliant,witty and mostly smart.
But I also realise that I want to be much more,I want to be someone who is approachable and someone who is a good person and someone who is positive and encouraging ..
I think moving me from the place where I was is just a way for the universe giving me a chance to rediscover myself and make a better version of myself.Mm
